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This song is for a friend that passed. All proceeds will be donated to her family.
lyrics
If I could look behind your eyes at certain moments of the day I'd find thoughts are caught off guard and often look like mine
If I could freeze a thought in time
I'd make a mold of it to study and describe
Like a plaster made of ashes from that fire inside of you that went out when you died
If I could look in side your dreams, and find the where and why in every scene, would I find a fear I have never thought of and make it my own?
Or is it something that I know?
A dying field of all the seeds I’ve sown
And nurtured only till they grew a voice to scream out in unison why did you leave us all alone?
Then I’d know why
All I got to do to understand you is find
The place in time, when it got too hard to hide
I wonder what it means when you find you’re somewhere in between feeling fine and letting out a cry you've held in for years
it’s strange to see you here. The way you knew to make my sorrows disappear.
But I guess you knew what works for others won’t work for yourself so the answer wasn’t clear
I wish you told me so?
Maybe you could find the comfort you need to know if you weren’t alone
If it wasn’t too late to hope
I’d try to find your brightest day
Analyze what made you smile and calculate
Every step you need to take to be that version of you
That loves herself enough to stay
Ben Wheeler uses an East German synthesizer and a Soviet flanger to create hauntingly weird yet bright and open electronic soundscapes. Bandcamp New & Notable Feb 10, 2022